Had a long chat with a friend. Felt good because I was talking. Couldn’t ask for anything more. It makes a whole lot of difference when you’re talking to nobody and then coming to the point when you’re really talking to somebody. You feel that hole in you being unplugged, and whatever you wish were let out before are now freed and released to the open. Imagine you’re in a dark room. Nothingness. Whether you open or close your eyes, everything looks the same. But when you step outside that room, you squint your eyes the moment light enters your eyes. Overwhelmed.
I had a good day today. A relative called, exchanged SMSes with my annoying but adorable little brother,and my cousin, received phone calls from 2,3 friends, met up with another friend for supper and lastly spoke with another friend online. So refreshing. I’ve been through several occasions where I did not talk/contact anyone for 1 whole day. or maybe 2 or 3 ! Yeap, 24-72 weird hours of silence. I just feel good at this point of time . And I wanna share that you can be happy and have that sense of well-being if you allow it to happen. If not, you’ll end up just like me yesterday when I couldn’t even smile. All I felt like doing was just to cry. Shedding those tears is a sign of relief that you’re letting out.
I’m my own master in keeping and treasuring things. At times I keep the wrong things and letting go the wrong things as well. But that is life isn’t it . We keep on trying, we keep on experimenting, we don’t give up on things just because they don’t go according to plan.If they did, or didn’t, I will still go on with whatever I am doing and not get affected by anything. It’s the matter of choice. I can choose to feel disrespectful of a person who when I talk to doesn’t seem to have the courtesy to look at you into the eyes when you talk to him/her. Some people engage in eye contact to a point you feel shy to look at that person. Some people balance it up. Sometime look, sometimes hold back that gaze.
I don’t have any exact point of what and why I’m writing all this rantings.I’m sleepy alright, (expect some disorientation)but I still feel so happy today that I wanna keep on writing. But again, its really good to talk. Call or talk to someone if you haven’t spoken to anyone yet. Doesn’t matter what you talk or say.