yeapp… i don’t know how typical are Leos.. but i do find that they, somehow, have dat tendency to be similar, in 1 way or another…. me, my dad, my uncle, a few cousins. we do not mind being independent. we walk our talk. at times we appear cool , calm… and that invisible raging fiery in us, its only for us to feel. we tend to be rather personal, having some difficulty in having trust in the people around us. we do not keep to ourselves tho, we love to share, we love people, and we love to see people happy. at the same time, not putting our own selves secondary. we look for sheer and pure happiness in the things we enjoy doing. eat, read, sports,laugh, anything…with the people we love!
a family friend once joked about my dad… ‘if there was a Nobel Prize for patience, you(my dad) might have won it!’ my dad is a patient person, tho there is a side of him which is only engaged at certain times. they’re called the time my siblings or myself get into trouble!)
i’ve inherited most of my mum’s side of being a strict and sometimes ,hot tempered person. I would be to embarrass to share this with you this…but i was quite a character at school. i wasn’t afraid of the teachers in class. Its not a nice scene when some messes with me. (basically)
but somehow, as the years passed by, to the current moment i’m living in, somehow, my dad’s side of patience seems more dominant.. it took me sometimes to adapt to this.. ya know, tryna be that calm person tho inside its raging madly.. ?! so i am benefiting from it tho at times i do freak out !
‘ur out of control’ a friend once said.. well , he said that because i was eating too much.. (or maybe for some other reasons !). well, i do admit that there are some pros and cons to certain types of personality traits that you inherit or develop as you age/grow. but what is more vital here is that you actually learn and appreciate from having these traits dominant and expressing itself in you.
having ‘em traits balanced is as important. its nice to have a little bit of everything rather than too much of a something.
but when somebody touches your sensitivity or poke that dying fire in you just to give em some spark.. (out of his/her own ignorance).. that person is actually playing with the Leo in me.(there goes the patience..?! nah….) Ii do not wanna hit back and level myself down..but at the same time i do get sicken by people who seems (or deemed) to not have a life.. so, let me tell you, do get a life!
the Leo in me is still here.. i am not nudging even an inch if people do wanna ‘play’ with Ms Leo ! I’m currently being(have always been) inspired by my dad, mum (a very very strong woman), and a few other people who consciously(i have to admit i do have problem spelling out this word!) or unconsciously have inspired me to be a better person. to me parentals, thank you, and I love you more. to friends who have watched me grow from a 1997 Julie to a 2009 Julie, I thank you too. Its a bless that I’ve met many many people in my life. Looking forward to meet many more !
I envy my dad for his patience.. and my mum for her strong personality. by having a bit of both comforts me.I do not need people to judge or label me. I am what I am. but I am always open for friendly advice, the same way I feel obliged to share with all of you reading, the pieces and bits that I’ve picked up along this short life of mine.
In case you’re wondering what on earth caused me to write this note (that IF you even care to know why.. ), ..well, there are 2 reasons…
reason number 1 : a reporter who interviewed me before said to me ‘i was expecting you to come in first!’. he was referring to a race which Recently took part in. and he said, ‘o, you must be saving up for the 2nd and 3rd race’…
conclusion : tercabar.challenged.(but i tried to take him neutrally lah.it wasnt his fault.) it took sometimes for me to explain to him that to me, its not about winning this time. its about molding that discipline and patience as part of the training process before I hit that high note.. if we have the patience, discipline and determination in what we do, i think, personally, we can improve and excel. i do not believe in rushing to excellence, achievements and errmm..popularity/publicit
y.. Speed versus Quality.. i go for the latter.. at the same time i do not want to be left behind also. so there has to be a balance to everything. I have to plan that balance. If i fail to plan, than im basically planning to fail. as simple as dat..
2. this one really triggered me… i saw this somewhere ….’..why do i meet guys who have crazy ex-es? doing this kinda shit…publishing that i ‘stole’ their bf over internet and stuff????I mean if the guy dont want you…move on…If u were so good along with him….nothing would even…pull both of u apart….
conclusion(to the writer): GET A LIFE MATE !!!
p.s. : i was deeply hurt and ‘hurt’ during Ironman Langkawi.. but i i’ve recovered, alhamdulillah and THANKS to all of my friends who have supported me. thank you … Only my knee haven’t tho !!! Dr. Tay here i come !!!!!!!
another quote which popped out of me brain : time is only running out when you tell yourself that you’re running out of time.. so people, just don’t bother..focus and enjoy the ride of life. i am .. how about you?
walking toward the sunset
me, my friends and my green top ! luvvit !